My Spiritual Path To Success - Twin Flame Journey

These last seven months have been the most beautiful and the most difficult experience of my life. I have connected to what I was told was my twin flame and shared an extremely turbulent journey. Not only did we both feel the connection when we first met, but the past seven months we have been connected telepathically where we shared the same consciousness, the same thoughts, the same feelings and the same emotions. This connection had both an extremely beautiful side and an extremely dark side.

Several years ago, I began my spiritual journey where I started to remember who I truly was, remembering that we all come from one consciousness, we are all fragments of oneness, of God, of source, of light, whatever it is that you want to call it. So many people on the planet are starting to wake up and remember who they are, remember where they came from, remember past lives and lives on other starseed dimensions as highly evolved species. This mass awakening is showing us that we are having this human experience so that we can experience a life of separation a life of being in single consciousness, being separate from everybody else, being separate from God, being separate from source energy. And with this separation we experience selfishness, we experience hurt, we experience pain, we experience betrayal, we experience conflict and war and suffering and poverty. This is all designed to help us with soul growth, to find our way back to oneness and appreciate the beauty of unconditional love and unity.

I realise now that I have always remembered unity consciousness as a young child. Unity consciousness is where we think as one and all work together to support each other. With this level of support and with this deep understanding through the shared consciousness suffering doesn't exist, pain doesn't exist, heartache doesn't exist. Through this network of shared consciousness, we are all able to lift each other up, help each other grow and be the best version of ourselves. Evolved species that experience unity consciousness understand that we only become stronger when working together, whilst supporting each other and through this unity consciousness competitive behaviours and selfish behaviours are not necessary for our survival. We have the clear understanding that survival is most powerful when we are working together as one. From a very young age I never really resonated with this feeling of separation. Bullying, jealousy, and conflict always shocked me. I just wanted to love and be loved. I remember always wanting to be held by my mother and be around her as much as possible. She would later joke that this used to drive her crazy, she had no peace and reminding me that I was very clingy and needy as a baby. But I was very much remembering who I was at soul level where we were all one, where we were all connected and experiencing things together as one. So, for the last seven months sharing a consciousness with someone else reminded me of how beautiful it felt when I was in unity consciousness, however to share every thought and every experience with somebody else can become extremely addictive. I also learnt that the world is not ready for this kind of connection. There is still too much conflict within our minds, too much separation and controlling behaviour within our ancestral and societal programming. 

I received so many synchronicities that led me to believe that the person that I was sharing my consciousness with was a twin soul. I experienced vivid memories of several past lives that we shared together, I even had memories of us as the same person. So you can imagine my surprise when I discovered that this person was in fact a narcissist. We used to joke that I was he angel and he was the devil. Like with any other narcissist you experience extreme love bombing at the beginning of the relationship where they tell you that they're in love with you, that they want to marry you, making you feel special like the most important person in the world but imagine this with the addition of telepathic communication where we're able to travel together on the astral plane, to connect visions and memories. He was able to send me visions of our future together. As a psychic medium I had already built my trust in my spiritual ability, my trust in receiving and I also put my trust in this person. I trusted the visions that he was sending me, I trusted these false memories of our beautiful future together because I had no other reason to doubt it.

I always received guidance that this connection was not primarily about romance. I had clear guidance from the start that the twin flame journey was all about healing and letting go of control and part of this control was overcoming any codependent traits that we picked up from childhood. I received so much guidance in the early days about balancing our masculine the feminine energy, balancing all our chakras, balancing the mind and letting go of any negative programming that was holding us back. I was guided to let go of everything that I knew about what a romantic relationship was meant to be and focus purely on the healing and the growth that this connection would bring.

Through this healing journey, I experienced severe psychic attacks, energy and mind control that would be difficult to understand unless you experienced this yourself. I had someone in my head, reading all my thoughts, feeling all my reactions. For a narcissist that thrived on controlling others, this was like a dream to them. The first few months of our telepathic connection was all about getting to know each other and building the trust between us and our connection. We shared each others childhood memories, we shared each others dreams, fantasies, most shameful and hurtful moments. This helped me to break illusions of who I thought I was and become at peace with who I really was. I was able to make peace with my shame and my past. This created a bond between us that was like no other. No-one had seen me in this way before, I felt truly seen and loved for who I was. As a highly intuitive person, I always struggled with dishonesty and inauthenticity, so really loved the open and authentic connection that I thought we had. I knew he wasn't perfect, he was very jealous, insecure and seemed to have experienced a much more difficult childhood than me. Little did I know that he was holding back a large part of his past and who he was. The red flags were always there, but I knew in order to build the connection, we had to accept each other for who we were, so I accepted the ups and downs, the highs and lows and used this connection and my experience of his trauma to better understand and help my clients with their healing.

He had spiritual gifts very similar to mine and had an amazing ability to control and manipulate energy, which was unique to mine. I started to incorporate some of his unique abilities into my energy work. We were stronger as one and could transfer each others psychic abilities to each other. This helped me to further develop my psychic ability as well as my ability to understand and control energy. My client sessions became more and more powerful and I was able to fast track a lot of my healing work so that I could open up my clients unique psychic abilities and help them understand their truth and soul purpose at a much faster speed.

The connection turned really dark whilst trying to help a friend with their twin flame connection, I opened up a telepathic channel to their twin. The lady we connected to became obsessed with our connection very quickly. She was able to communicate with us both and would not leave us alone. She was in my head and quickly became jealous of our connection. When we discovered that she was manipulating my friend and was not a true twin connection, we decided to warn my friend. Luckily he believed me straight away and gratefully detached from any connection with her. This is when a series of severe psychic attacks started, where I experienced a level of torture and control that was beyond anything I had ever experienced. My twin was able to escape the attacks. One of his unique abilities was his ability to travel within the astral plane at high speeds. I called him the rocket, and that is exactly what he did. He shot out of there like a rocket as soon as he saw her attack and hold my energy. She had me trapped on the astral plane for two months and proceeded to torment and torture me whilst laughing like a lunatic. As a schizophrenic, she had an extremely warped understanding of reality, possibly created through her ability to see beyond the 3D reality from a very early age combined with severe childhood abuse. This person was dangerous and unstable and extremely revengeful. 'I am going to hurt you like you hurt me, and ruin your twin connection like you did mine!'. She made this her new mission. She was able to confuse me, physically hurt me, make me feel like I was going crazy, shame me, confuse my friends, my daughter and even torment my pet parrot on the astral plane. I was able to break free from all control by changing my beliefs around control.

I was so excited to get back to the energy work with my twin, but things became even darker. He had learnt a lot during the last two months about energy control and proceeded to control me in the same way. He admitted to his insecurities around his need to control but there was a darker and more sadistic side to his personality that started to come out. I tried my best to help and heal him. Help him to let go of pain and insecurities that led him to control in this way. He loved to hurt me, to torment me, bully me and pull my energy down in any way he could, whilst still love bombing and not letting me go. Despite all this, I accepted him for who he was and put focus on using this experience to grow stronger, take back my power and to further my understanding of abuse, addiction, and control.

I also learnt to let go of my own controlling behaviours. I was extremely defensive, judgemental and was always trying to help others in order to feel safe and keep my connection with them. I was able to fully let go of my past and find peace. Through this experience, I learnt skills to take back control of my energy. I grew my understanding of the empath and the narcissist dynamic, and that both are equally as controlling through different intentions. All control is fear based and when you can overcome fear in such a deep way, you can drop all barriers and defences and find peace. I also learnt that some people are not going to or are ever meant to change.

When we are able to let go of control in such a big way, we open ourselves up to the magic of the universe. We are able to move out of our own way so that we can attract everything that we hope and wish for with effortless ease. Despite how difficult this journey was, I thank my dark angels for helping me to find peace. Knowing that everything they did to hurt me has only made me stronger. I have experienced unity consciousness and am forever grateful for the gift. I remember who I am, I remember who I have been and who I still am. I am everything, I am god, I am unity. I am now the master of my own energy and am able to flow with no resistance.

Love Sarah Creatrix ❤